Waking up to your inner voice.

You know when sometimes You Just Know. Don't ever berate yourself and think yourself silly. There's a reason you have an inner voice in the first place. As someone who has grown up in a firm atmosphere of "rationals" and been burnt too many times by ignoring my inner voice for "logic" and practicality...If anything, doing THAT is irrational!

My lymph nodes still feel the size of peaches...to be honest I don't think I've ever been this sick in terms of URTIs before. At least I have a stash of needles and herbs with anti-viral properties which help alleviate symptoms somewhat, or I'm sure it would be a whole lot worse...In any case not much can be done and to be dragged off to hospital or whatever is actually a lot more dangerous for someone with compromised immunity...

Anyhow the last couple of days of alone time despite the obvious discomforts of being pretty ill has been much appreciated. It sucks that I feel so obligated by others that I have to be seriously ill just to be able to close myself off and rest without feeling guilty. In my minimal waking hours it has been really good to just close off from that *noise* that is the external world. My favourite pursuit has been reading Mr Tolle...which is like a deep meditation in itself...it really gets me "in the zone" which is a pretty sweet place really :)

Restful holidays are good just cos much of my hypermentality goes with it- my mind is not forced to be constantly operating at 120% capacity or operating on 100% standby.

Maybe I'm getting old...But I really DO like my Quiet Life :)