Thursday, July 23, 2009

Silly Zhen!

Feeling quite a bit more sane after boiling up some of the nice putrid brown stuff :)

I also ventured to jam a few needles in...

Hopefully that means normal ;) levels of sanity will return in full force and my jingling nerves will stabilize...

EVERYTHING scares me lately!!! Random lost tourist invades my personal bubble to ask a question stands a bit too close and I'm almost jumping out of my skin...

I've been such a bundle of nerves, even though my logical brain knows I'm being completely irrational :p

In any case when that peaceful calm washed over me as I sipped that brown goo and liked it...and even more so after the needles went in...I was thinking gosh I am an idiot...what's the point of all that knowledge I study so hard for if I can't even rescue myself in a more timely fashion in times of irrational crises...why do I only act when I have a snowball! I guess it is just that bit harder when you don't have that objectivity which comes with detachment. In the same way I can see why it's probably not such a great idea to treat family and friends either...

In any case...next time I need to be better prepared for eclipses LOL...there is that joke that I start to turn into a werewolf whenever there is a full moon...maybe with eclipses I become a timid little mouse that scuttles to the nearest available dark corner...and no amount of "pull yourself together you little chicken shit" is going to change a thing!

In any case, considering how much my constitution can't afford to lose blood I'm actually really glad to be a rare AB blood type...being the universal recipient with not many people actually able to benefit from my donated blood anyway...it means I don't feel so guilty that I can't!

8 comments:

Unknown said...

hmm i don't even know what my blood type is...I should really check. What kind of brown goo are we talking here?

Zz... said...

magic potions brown goo :)

miruspeg said...

My blood type in O negative which means my blood is compatible with everyone....so if you ever need any Macs you know where to find me.
Then we would be blood brothers!

Take care mate
Pegs

HappyOrganist said...

sometimes you have to get really desperate to finally try to help yourself. And I'm sure it's super hard to be objective about one's own health (hard to be doctor and patient). that's why we all go to other people for doctors, right?
there's magic in numbers! I already wrote about that elsewhere..
magic in teamwork.

good luck to you. I hope I get to see if you make it as an acupuncturist. I don't know if that will happen (people blogging long enough and so on and so forth, etc, etc). I'm not too worried about it. But I think it would be quite interesting, given your constitution (the way you describe yourself).

Zz... said...

WOW! Pegs, is O- rare? I think I have another person I find easy to get along with who is that too...can everybody, even positives take negative blood?

haha, I love how you describe us as blood "brothers" rather than sisters...yeah I think of myself as a "bro" too...cool!

H.O oh I am already practising ;) so yeah whenever you're ready... LOL...I have had very favourable feedback re my treatments whether reiki or acupuncture(even reiki before I even was taught reiki!!)...I think I just give out energy- actually the kinesiologist said I just give out so much energy to everybody willy nilly without even knowing, which is why I often get completely drained so easily!

HappyOrganist said...

you're already practicing? that's cool. but you still have schooling remaining, no? I want to see if you burn out or not (there's a high burn-out rate for that field, from what I understand). and given how often you complain about being drained one way or another I'm curious to see if you last.

Zz... said...

practising as in "practising" lol

haha well only time will tell- in any case it was always in my plan to only practise part-time....yeah career wise i have quite a lot of foresight and planning...that can't be said for just about everything else i do :p

I didn't know there is a high burn out rate - I just noticed a lot of people don't go into practice after study and plus it's definitely not easy to commit to and won't suit everyone...unless you reaaally consider it a "calling" ;)

Zz... said...

practising as in "practising" lol

haha well only time will tell- in any case it was always in my plan to only practise part-time....yeah career wise i have quite a lot of foresight and planning...that can't be said for just about everything else i do :p

I didn't know there is a high burn out rate - I just noticed a lot of people don't go into practice after study and plus it's definitely not easy to commit to and won't suit everyone...unless you reaaally consider it a "calling" ;)