MAJOR BREAKTHROUGH!

I had been seeing 333s-3333333s for more than a week everyday, multiple times for a reason...I finally got the message I was supposed to get, hence why I won't be surprised if today when I go out I don't see any 333s!

In any case I had a huge breakthrough with my mysterious crappy health...I read something on Tuesday and yesterday had time to ponder it...I then did an "experiment" made myself SO SICK!!! and then cured myself better....all through food!!!

One step closer...I really think I will nip this in the bud one day soon...I also think I'm going to be able to help a lot of people because of it...it was definitely fated me getting into the healing profession...

I have made two really interesting health discoveries of late...totally tickling the "scientist" and "experimental investigator" in me! But anyway....yeah I don't want to talk too soon so we'll see how it goes over the next couple of months and then maybe all can be revealed!

Money...and women LOL

I'd have to say I know some pretty financially comfortable/capable people...as we were casually looking willy nilly at nice properties...it occurred to me how easy is life when you have loads of money...you don't really need to think twice about huge acquisitions...cos pretty well there aren't any limits!!!

It was an interesting reminder (while I was cruising in a Mercedes) of the huge divide that exists between the people who have and the people who have not.

In any case later in the conversation it occurred to me: how much money do you really need anyway?? And once you have so much money...what exactly is the point? What is your purpose?

...And then I totally understand why very wealthy people aren't necessarily the happiest...

The other interesting thing of late is suddenly since my holidays started I have progressed into an "Era of Women"...suddenly I'm not sure whether I got more in touch with my Yin aspect so I relate better or what but suddenly I am presented with women in real life I actually can really get along with without backbreaking effort! In any case it's been fun :) It's been a long time...I think I needed to break out of the rut of only being able to get along with males...in any case I feel like I've definitely made some kind of "progress" since I can suddenly be good friends with women so that's cool.

And the other interesting thing is I'm gotten out of the 1111 phase had a few 222s but a shiteload of 333, 3333333 and 33333 and 333. Ahhhh I feel blessed! hehe...

Newsflash: The Girl...SLEEPS!

Last night was the first I actually slept and awoke when the sun had risen for the first time since Last Thursday night!!! I don't ever remember having gone so long without being able to sleep-it's incredibly disorientating.

Sometimes, when you are completely drained...sucked dry, you need a bit of helping hand from someone with good energy reserves and spiritual clout - you know someone in God's inner circle with a huge army of angels in their "arsenal"? Suddenly, your prayers are a lot more immediately effective...

In any case not sure if it was the prayers or the unorthodox therapeutic approach of late night swearing that M engaged me in for his own amusement but it was FREAKING AWESOME to actually be able to sleep even if I still feel like I'm burning up and insides feeling icky from the potent brew.

With actual rest, I might actually be able to study for my huge exam Monday yet! THANKS MATEY and a certain Bishop del Portillo...

In other news due to being so completely exhausted I managed to lock myself out AGAIN(I'm starting to wonder if this is a birthday thing since James seems to have done this just as frequently in recent times too ;), this time with absolutely nothing on me...so I had to ask for help from a passing neighbour in the block to call for a spare key after he ascertained that no he could not climb into my apartment without risking serious injury(his idea not mine). So I ended up meeting my first authentic Chilean from Chile...and get this his name was Marx! (yes after Karl Marx) but actually he reminded me more of Groucho Marx LOL...

In another bit of good news...my easter break is looking good. A practitioner from the town I want to move to has agreed to take me in for some of my practicum and killing two birds with one stone I get a nice break out of the city too! In true out of city style she even said I could stay at her place for that time even though I'm a totally random stranger...how nice and hospitable is that!!! So refreshing these non city folk- brought a big huge smile to my face :) Something I really needed to restore my faith in other people and general society lately...

Gift or Burden?

My 'blessed' friend and I were talking...another whose lot in life seems to be tending wounded birds, that or we both seem to have attracted more than our fair share of troubled souls into our life throughout our life, people who only seem to stick around for as long as we're needed and then very obviously disappear when they can fly again. My friend said it's good as it shows that we're the kind of compassionate people others feel they can open up to and talk to about things they can't confide in anybody else...

I was reading Nova Holistic Journal and read about an Irish woman very much in touch with angels called Lorna Byrne. This part of her interview resonated with me:

"In absorbing the pain of others"... it's a role she's happy to accept because "in doing that role I know people are suffering less and that means an awful lot to me"..."I suppose God has allowed me to feel people's emotions and to take some of that to help them cope."

Unfortunately I'm not such a noble white entity...sometimes I really mind...it's such a Thankless Burden!! I think people in our position really deserve some kind of "source" we can tap into to replenish and consolidate our own life energy so we don't get drained and overly affected. I asked my friend how she managed to not get personally weighed down from absorbing others troubles and in terms of her own issues too where how does she "unload"? And the answer seemed so obvious...she talks to God!

But not being as naive a creature as I, she also admitted that she's always been aware of the need to "protect" herself and has managed to achieve this by always keeping a "distance" and "a barrier" from other people...she admits this means she's never been close to anybody....ever.

What a strange idea...perhaps this is the way to go...I guess this whole issue lies in that grey area which I am still learning to grow into. Sometimes I wish all that existed is white= good and bad=black(metaphorically speaking) and that everybody else could distinguish these two shades as easily as some of us can...

How much are you Compelled to Help others?

It's not my nature to butt into other people's business- sheesh, I am anti-confrontational by nature even in my own business LOL

But sometimes there are some people who just strike me as screaming out for help- I dunno maybe I feel it, or they touch me on some subconscious level...and it is very hard to just ignore.

In any case, unless I meet them in a professional setting or they are a personal friend, and I am directly or indirectly 'asked', I generally won't butt in...but lately I feel the urge to help completely random strangers...

and I have that fear- argh what if they don't want to be helped- do I really want to be screamed at and be told to mind my own business?!!

And do I want to be troubling myself by engaging in others problems unnecessarily?

ergh.

I think now there's this extra confusion layer because I have these "feelings" I'm trying to acknowledge as valid and not just ignore these days and some of these "feelings" seem to be angels etc communicating with me...

Ergh, what to do?

Green Means Go and Red Means Stop.

Ahhh....life is so much easier when you have angels to guide you! Today alone I've seen at least 7 sets of triple numbers, 3 in relation to something in particular...I love how clear the meaning is when it's like that!

I find life so fascinating- especially for me...it doesn't seem to matter how much effort I put in, when something is not meant to be, it just doesn't happen...even with all the best intentions and planning when it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be!

And other things...happen almost effortlessly...it is almost like you come to a cross section and divine powers either put the boomgate down or raise it sending you along your merry way- well that is how my life has always been!

And now I've learnt to be flexible and I trust in these divine powers so I just go whichever way I am sent. Before I had all these rigid pre-decided plans eons in advance so when I couldn't carry them out to plan it caused me great angst and frustration.

In any case in the past year or so the "light" has been coming to me...and I'm starting to understand how my path has been so unique and also that my life is unravelling as it should :)

Thank You, Angels!

wow, the last 24 hours have been...something else!

It started with yesterday afternoon, a man randomly came and knocked directly on my door and came and gave me money to park his car in my garage for a few days...cool money just walked right up to my door, no effort on my part, I didn't even need to give him a key or anything-he could have just parked it in there without even asking let alone paying and I wouldn't have noticed! I wouldn't have taken the money except what with my whole lost key fiasco and needing a camera lens, I thought I could definitely do with the extra cash...

Today, I was out and about and waiting for the locksmith to call me at 230pm as arranged resigning myself to the fact that 5.5 days later the keys were goner. Whaddya know?

Is this Blessed Synchronicity or WHAT?!! At that exact time when the locksmith was supposed to call, I got a call from a woman instead saying she had my keys!!!!

I couldn't believe my "luck"! And the surprising thing is, the locksmith never ever did end up calling! So not only did I avoid having to shell out for a locksmith, I also didn't have to purchase a new set of keys- wooohoooo!

Furthermore, when I went to ring on the old lady's doorbell she wasn't there, I encountered 3 different random old ladies walking around who smiled at me yet somehow I knew which lady had my keys and had no hesitation saying to one...are you the lady that has my keys?!

Bizarre, there is something definitely acting on an inexplicable level of consciousness for me lately!

Apart from that the other happiness or "achievement" for today is that I was able to smile for the first time at a random stranger! This "smiling business" has always been a sore point with me in the past....I just can't do it!

Usually if anybody in the city smiles it will be some dodgy random man so obviously I won't smile back. I've never been able to smile at someone off my own bat before...today I finally smiled at a random stranger....a groundbreaking FIRST! (And I survived- not only that, it was actually quite pleasant!)

I realise the reason I don't smile at people is that nobody in the city inspires me to want to smile at them but today I saw this old white haired man with a wrinkled face but crisp shirt, belt and pants- reminded me of Gepetto in Pinocchio- carrying this HUGE black Nikon camera...obviously this was so cute it made me really smile and he smiled back with twinkly eyes like we shared some secret between the two of us ;)

So that was the last 24 hours...wow, in light of the last 2 days or so...I wonder what tomorrow brings?!!!

And p.s just for the record, the triple numbers just keep coming!

A Berry Indulgent Day

It's been so hot lately, I've been neglecting proper diet the past couple of days primarily surviving on my addiction to Red Rock's Honey Mustard Kettle Chips and fruit.

I'm pretty ashamed of myself actually for being so lazy and unhealthy. So today when I went grocery shopping I went all out at the greengrocer's...buying an assortment of fresh vegetables, fruits and berries as above. The little red ones are actually "blackcurrant grapes" I have never seen them and didn't know if they were actually fresh blackcurrants or not which is why I thought I'd get them to try- eh, in the end they just tasted like little red grapes but cost about 3X more!

I didn't get out of the grocer's unscathed of junk though...feeling in a food indulgent mood, I ended up spending $10 on 300g of chocolate which on retrospect is quite a bit for one's everyday eating! (Especially since I still have Cote D'or and Lindt sitting around untouched...) I guess I'm still "researching" European chocolate to find out which one I like best with a view to being able to buy and consume only small quantities of high quality chocolate in the future...

Here we have German Ritter with whole hazelnuts, Dutch Droste orange and Madagascan cocoa pastilles. The only normal one left I need to "research" is the Swedish Marabou.

I'm actually going to cook properly tonight to make amends for all the junk eating...I'm feeling like ASIAN food and RICE so this is what I'm toying with in my head...Clay Pot Rice with pork mince, snake beans, black bean sauce, ginger, Chinese wine, swiss brown mushrooms and maybe a few ground dried shrimp....Mmmmm sounds good to me!

On another note sure enough I had another "triple number" moment today...but in relation to someone else(by accident)...I really think being attuned to reiki must open some kind of "psychic door" to an alternate consciousness...this last year or so has just been way too interesting!

My key word...BALANCE!

This (The spiritual meaning of Numbers) has got to be THE MOST uncanny article I have ever read on numerology...

My life path number is rather special....the "master" number 11. I don't know much about numerology but this article mentioned how the number 11 is both a heightened/amplified version of the number 1 but also indicative of the number 2 since 1+1=2.

Some key words regarding these number associations JUMPED out at me...Purity(my name!), positivity and pure energy, striking a BALANCE (always a struggle for me!), higher ideals, refinement, invention, fulfillment, vision, equality, justice, duality....reflective, thoughtful, intuitive? That's me!!

I was also fascinated by the meanings of 3s and 4s since I most often see in daily life the number 444 which has always spooked me- this is actually drawing my attention to the need to be GROUNDED! I often also see 333 which I've always liked and always welcome when I see...this is drawing my attention to the need to be able to express my CREATIVITY!

This is also very coincidental because someone asked me my New Year's Resolution and I said I'm keeping it plain and simple this year, "I just want to survive my studies this year successfully and try and achieve a more balanced life."

In the end the author concludes that people who are associated with the number eleven are very psychically connected- no kidding! WOW.

edit: wow the revelations keep coming today...I found out that my favourite colour of the past few years - GREEN- is the colour of balance! Gotta Love Synchronicity!!!

edit: post Caroline's comment... *wow* Angels have been speaking to Me??? All This Time??!!! Here is more info on Angelic triple numbers...

On another note (which I was going to do as its own post but I'll just add here instead...), in the last month or two I have noticed ALOT (like more than 1 or 2 years worth!) Rainbows spontaneously popping up in My Life! Here is the latest one which came to me on New Year's Eve...



Rainbows following me around?? Surely, that's gotta be a good sign!! No wonder I feel so positive about the year ahead...I am Truly Blessed!! *:-D*