Green Means Go and Red Means Stop.

Ahhh....life is so much easier when you have angels to guide you! Today alone I've seen at least 7 sets of triple numbers, 3 in relation to something in particular...I love how clear the meaning is when it's like that!

I find life so fascinating- especially for me...it doesn't seem to matter how much effort I put in, when something is not meant to be, it just doesn't happen...even with all the best intentions and planning when it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be!

And other things...happen almost effortlessly...it is almost like you come to a cross section and divine powers either put the boomgate down or raise it sending you along your merry way- well that is how my life has always been!

And now I've learnt to be flexible and I trust in these divine powers so I just go whichever way I am sent. Before I had all these rigid pre-decided plans eons in advance so when I couldn't carry them out to plan it caused me great angst and frustration.

In any case in the past year or so the "light" has been coming to me...and I'm starting to understand how my path has been so unique and also that my life is unravelling as it should :)

It's all relative...

So I got caught out daydreaming again. This time catching the train in the wrong direction and ending up a third of the way to my old town! Unfortunately I had on me some items that needed to be refrigerated so I could not give in to my deep heartfelt desire to take a 5 hour joyride and drop in for a "quick visit"!

Musings for today:
When I mix with really privileged people who have had "soft, easy" lives and see what is "tough going" for them, I have a perverse, arrogant sense of pride in the resilience and strength I've demonstrated in adversity...

but in the end it's all relative-there are always people worser off and better off than you-basically one learns to adapt and cope according to how one's life is.

I realised though that if you have to endure a lot of shit, it's possibly better to go through it earlier in life rather than later cos at least if it happens earlier you're more mentally tough so that if shit strikes again you won't end up crumbling into a hopeless heap like people who are first timers at a later age when they have less of that resilience you naturally have with youth....it's definitely a handy life skill to have!

In any case, the worst outcome is that because of these "life experiences" disproportionate to my age I find it pretty well impossible to relate to people my own age and even worse, it is quite a bit harder to really respect people who have had really easy lives.

The best outcome is that I have an immense sense of compassion for people who have to deal with adversity so I'm a good source of support for people like this.

Anyway just rambling to myself as usual. I'm buggered. I think I'll just eat plain rice for dinner.

Have a good weekend...I'm looking forward to mine :)