Okay so when a German tells me so I listen, lol

Talk about PREJUDICED! LOL

So anyway my German gf who I highly admire and respect told me to be a certain way. Somehow when a German tells me so I listen and obey, lol...it's hypnotoad on Futurama all over again!

So from that what to conclude? Humans are a completely irrational species!!! But then again there are those that attribute it to gender...LOL

An aside, I was told that with how to get on with the opposite genders it goes like this...for males a female puts in 50% listening and 50% understanding. With females males need 100% listening and 0% understanding. Obviously a Male told me that! *eye roll*

I feel wrung out with too much social interaction and being pulled in so many directions-not like I can retain my structural energetic integrity easily when I feel like lots of vultures all grabbing at me...I think introverted hermits were not made for this...I've scheduled in serious CAVE TIME for recovery next week, however the next month is a bit hectic!! (But also possibly exciting...)

p.s for the record while I'm being irrationally(?) prejudiced can I just put on the record...I. ABSOLUTELY. CANNOT. STAND. LEO. MEN. I guess that is probably why I have drawn them my entire life probably in about an 80% to other ratio!!!!! see...there is some rationality to my rant!

Daily Debrief

Okay, when patterns keep repeating that means it's time for CHANGE. A change of mindset cos at the end of the day what is the limiting factor? One's Mind 80% of the time, probably...

I'm not exactly sure HOW I want things to change exactly just that I want the same old patterns to stop repeating...also I'm in the mood...for an adventure...to be a bit...daring. LOL

Apart from that my debrief from today includes "PINK CLAY, you and I are mortal enemies forever!!!" Never ever get into a fight with pink clay...wherever you want to use pink clay make sure it is a surface you don't care to be pink forever and don't care to clean or if people see that it is dirty...eg not a white sparkling bathroom...lol

Also...WHY do I keep getting my friend's sore throats- do germs really travel VIRTUALLY hours and hours away?? It sucks being an empath, lol

And...I was excited to rake leaves for one of the very few times in my life today...I LOVE the smell...those dried up rustly leaves are so fragrant...not to mention the smell of spring...a gorgeous scent I wish I could bottle...have no idea but maybe it's a mix of frangipanis, jasmine and roses...with the sun...and maybe even some estuary breeze thrown in...lol

Basically nothing particularly exciting on my front but just very busy...it's gearing up to be a social week which means I am accountable for the state of my house and that it is presentable...lol...arghhhh sooooo much hard yakka...needing a strategy-at the moment it's been my trademark chaotic genius- move about randomly and do bits and pieces as I please...as the time ticks down to grand inspection(lol) I feel I have to move to a more systematic strategy...perhaps a room by room debrief much like a video game...Room Completed (Check!)

Enough babbling...hope your week is unfurling well...

♥Zz...

Just be You.

I don't know why there is such a need to define all the time with me...maybe it is my INTJ which loves all the labelling and neat categorization and compartmentalization think...SHELDON from Big Bang! :D

Anyway my city slicker friends call me country bumpkin but then I know REAL country bumpkins that like talking about cows all day ;) (That ain't me...LOL)

Also even my music taste...lately I've been indulging my taste for the electro sound listening to the unique experimental style of one of my music heroes MARTIN DOSH and the electropop of CUT COPY....hardly country bumpkin fare, more like the teenybopsters of any major metro city!!

So yeah I need to learn how to accept being neither full black nor white and just live with the speckled egg of white black and grey that is ALL me as well as the yellow-white banana thing I have happening, lol...innate complexity is a good thing...just cos most people don't seem to have this...it's okay to be a super minority...would be nice to live in a country and culture where more INs existed though...and to be understood by a majority rather than a very teeny tiny rare spark of genius, lol...

I Miss You.

Isn't it weird how sometimes your dreams are so...real? I had a dream of someone I met a few years ago...totally random! It's interesting though how some meetings are so fleeting and transient yet so meaningful, affecting and deeply engraved in one's memory?

The problem for me has always been one of distance and geography and heading in different directions...literally...one of these days I might get lucky, lol.

But in the meantime I have to make the best of being stuck in Neanderthal country, where at least in my neck of the woods there are plenty of nice old people at least, lol :)

I miss feeling such admiration and respect and comfort and draw though....meeting of minds...blah blah

I hate long hair

Fast approaching the date for a chop, I was walking with a bounce in my step, when I realised that bounce could very well have actually been coming not from my feet but from my pony tail! And then I realised I actually feel a little conflicted about going for a chop cos I'll lose the ponytail! I don't know but I guess I like the whole swing-swing thing of the ponytail...it gives you the illusion of being forever young, or at least not out of touch with the child in you...since it still feels the same LOL!

Maybe it was a day of Childhood Regression. I had a 'brilliant' idea...not being able to source lucerne for my potted food plants except in 100L bags quite a distance away, it occurred to me that my guinea pig ATE the stuff...so I decided to check my local pet store...being SPRING there were so many cute babies! I had to almost bite my tongue to not want to pick up the 10week old cocoa chocolate cavy and run...I don't know why but I figure my attraction to CUTE FURRY things must be like a distorted form of maternal instinct gone wrong...hahah cos seriously I don't feel the same about actual human babies...I can very very easily say BYE and leave them very happily without a sad thought...I guess in a way it must be calculated...I like cute furry things that aren't smart enough to talk or argue back, lol...and that can be left in a cage for a few hours without people screaming child abuse!

Yes there's always a logical explanation...and perhaps like Sheldon in BIG BANG, it is purely intellectual-mental for me...it takes a cute furry baby animal to pull my heart strings rather than a baby human...as unacceptable and frowned upon in normal society that must be...for a female of my age!

Apart from that I'm really enjoying watching HAMISH AND ANDY...it's so hilarious I have to say it's an effort to not laugh so hard I'm drooling on the floor...seriously!

And my mate M is EXACTLY like an asian Hamish, in look, demeanour and schoolboyish prankster-ness...that makes it even more funny. And big thumbs up to long suffering ANDY lol...I don't think I've ever seen a better sport of a person!! I have no idea how he can refrain from giving Hamish a good ol *Splat* sometimes, lol...you gotta watch it M...your evil twin is right here in Oz!!!

Apart from that listening to my amazing DOSH cds...wow how talented is the dude...not only is the music inspiring & mesmerizing that turns me into a hypnotised productive worker bee but the album art just hits all the sweet spots! Will have to post a pic one day...maybe on the songblog. Anyway gotta run busy busy...soooo tired.