A Thought...

Happiness is an inner state...it can only be found within.

Ja :)

In case you like to know about my mundane matters...Trip to dentist in store for me today-eeek!

How much are you Compelled to Help others?

It's not my nature to butt into other people's business- sheesh, I am anti-confrontational by nature even in my own business LOL

But sometimes there are some people who just strike me as screaming out for help- I dunno maybe I feel it, or they touch me on some subconscious level...and it is very hard to just ignore.

In any case, unless I meet them in a professional setting or they are a personal friend, and I am directly or indirectly 'asked', I generally won't butt in...but lately I feel the urge to help completely random strangers...

and I have that fear- argh what if they don't want to be helped- do I really want to be screamed at and be told to mind my own business?!!

And do I want to be troubling myself by engaging in others problems unnecessarily?

ergh.

I think now there's this extra confusion layer because I have these "feelings" I'm trying to acknowledge as valid and not just ignore these days and some of these "feelings" seem to be angels etc communicating with me...

Ergh, what to do?

Silence is Golden

Silence, Intuition, Resonance, Understanding.

My spiritual rennaissance of sorts is manifesting as The Hermit typically found on tarot cards.

Like I said earlier, all I feel like doing is going to the beach, sitting and breathing.

And I'm gripped by a new found appreciation of silence and lack of desire to talk. And I'm really grateful for those people I can just be with, in silence.

I'm also grateful for my international friends...That is the beauty of the internet, friendships defy all typical sociocultural barriers. Hence I am blessed with friendships I would never have come across in tangible life...

Actually this was a pretty funny exchange between Me & S which just highlights the beauty of crossing cultural barriers...

She finished an email with "Life is just a bowl of cherries"...well, I'd never heard that expression before however my Brit friend from down on the farm and I had been discussing cherries lately so the way I guessed that expression to mean was that,

"Life just gives you the shits!" ;)

Haha! I am so glad to provide the rollicking laughter on two sides of the globe for the day LOL

Fuzzy Reception...

My intuitive antennae are all wacked out right now. I'm having so much inexplicable stimulus coming at me right now that I can make neither head nor tail of any of it- I'm completely overwhelmed = total mind boggled confusion. Hence the extreme withdrawal and retreating within myself to try and get my radar back so I can make sense of it all! argh.

Francois Truffaut's The 400 Blows (1959)

So as my free time rapidly ticks down, I've been in the mood to indulge my long lost cinema habit- and not just any...I've only been in the mood for old time classics.

There's just something about old movies, and not just for the gorgeous black and white visuals where each screen would make a half decent photo...I think it's because there are less "party trick ruffles" that modern technology affords cinema these days so you tend to get a film that has more consideration in its plot, dialogue and construction. I guess I also enjoy these realistic coming of age type stories, in particular this one, because I can relate to our protagnoist as the troublemaker problem child! ;) I also absolutely adored this film as a series of visuals...since I love black and white photography above all...and this one is stunning...the French definitely have a fine tradition of excellent cinematography...

I'm lucky my local library seems to have a really awesome arthouse collection of old school classics and foreign films (much better than the video shop- and the best part is it's free :)

Apart from engrossing myself in old time flicks, all I really feel like doing lately if I do go out, is to go to the beach sit there and just breathe....no kidding! I guess that's pretty anti-social but that's what I feel like. But since I know that time is ticking down I'm still making myself go out and catch up with people a little just cos I feel I have to while I have the opportunity...

I guess if there were more mature souls in this part of the world maybe I'd feel a little differently but the reality is I'm inundated by baby souls here and it can get pretty draining...