OK, Not ALL kids are NIGHTMARES!!!

...just the ones related to ME! lol

So I met my friend's kid for the first time today...ironically for all my lack of maternal instinct I'm not bad with kids or babies...well not so bad that you could tell I'm completely NOT enamoured with them ;)

Anyway he was a good kid...so calm...truly had the PEACE OF GOD! Wow it was so distinct from the bratty precocious hyperactive disagreeable tantrum kids I've gotten used to witnessing over the last few years...

In any case although it was a pleasant and refreshing surprise to find a kid that was NOT a nightmaare it still didn't make me think I might ever want any of my own one day! I don't really see a real need to proreate my genes...I may be arrogant but not THAT level of arrogant, lol! Maybe if the father was superhot and superintelligent...then MAYBE the world would be done a favour with an extra superintelligent attractive DECENT person, lol, but to be honest I think it's CRUEL to bring children into a society like today...lol got chatting with an old granny at the bus stop about today's terrible society, hahah I am SO in GRANDMA era! We talked about the evils of global warming and electromagnetic pollution that are starting to be obviously manifest...then we also talked about the days we grew up when the world was a little less crazy, when the weather was distinct, when people had manners and weren't glued to their electronics...and she talked about growing up during WWII and lacking and I spoke of growing up a migrant and lacking. Anyway it was a nice resonance...that I never find with people my own age, lol...

No wonder Asian Women are in Such High Demand

I mean, could you ASK for a better wife??!

Okay if you live in a cave and missed it, here's why.

Makes me proud to be asian and female. Not to mention she's gorgeous and has serious brains too...

Okay, an aside...maybe this is taking the admiration a bit TOO far...LOL

I was asked recently if I would ever want kids...you know me...I'm NOT a fan of them...however I did reply that if I did it would be purely for superficial reasons...Eurasian ones LOOK GOOD and have the best genes etc so smart etc etc... Wendi's are a great example!!! Doesn't mean I'm going to entertain that natural affinity for OLD MEN tho!!!! *LOL*

It's MY Life Thanks : )

So it's pretty well taken a good 27 years or so just to be able to say that comfortably...What a relief!

Living life to please others will ultimately never make one's own self happy- for people who weren't born or socialised to be assertive like me-that's the most important thing you gotta take home from this post!!!

This post got inspired when in all my excitement as usual the first thing I blabbed to my folks who just got back from overseas was my whole Go to China Further Training revelation and my recent encounter with the old wise herbal expert practitioner...

My mum's immediate reaction: "Don't be so ambitious!"

I really don't get it, maybe she herself has a complex of being scared of failure so never wants to let me even Try!! Reminder: People can survive failure and disappointment-if anything they're good lessons for how to improve!

Yes parents, you gotta learn to let go- let your kids learn things for themselves the hard way- they can't always be under your protective bubble!

So anyway, last night I did a bit more research on the scholarship by talking to one of the winners from this year. Unfortunately, because I am not white blood and cos my school doesn't offer any scholarships I won't be eligible.

I also looked into the option of travelling as part of school for clinical hours but the reality is, not knowing any Mandarin- how much will I really learn? compared to staying local...so thinking through other options- I'm getting increasingly frustrated at not being able to get sufficient training in herbs because not only is my school skewed towards manual therapies and acupuncture...even if I want to organise private training there are such a lack of good herbalists that can function in English! Perhaps...due to these limitations (and my age!) I will have to go lateral and learn western herbs rather than try and specialise in Chinese herbs for internal medicine. hmmm...

Jumping back to thought from before...it's weird how most people I know succumb to peer pressure-for me that's never been an issue- but parental pressure-wow total other story!

Anyway I'm glad I've learnt to assert myself FINALLY and hopefully with all this expert herbal treatment, in 2 years I will be a lot healthier to be a lot more self sufficient and possibly even financially independent so have less obligation to succumb to other people's interests...

I'm sure my mum will be a lot happier and more at ease if I just get a husband, have kids and be a housewife which is possibly fine (bar the last part long term) but hmmm that depends on finding THE RIGHT PERSON and that's never guaranteed...so I'm happy with my direction now :)

In any case I'm only not yet 28- so I wish people would stop worrying- I think if you're a very independent person who likes time to yourself, has friends and is busy doing what you enjoy then lonesome factor should not kick in in a big way until perhaps you're retired, stuck in a house and have few friends...then maybe, you might consider settling for companionship...LOL

Random Thought...Self-Confidence

Everytime I start to get a little cynical about the world(usually it's other peoples "adult" cynicism rubbing off on me)...something little will happen to trigger me back into my idealistic world of colourful rainbows and twinkly stars :)

LOL imagine if I hung out with kids all day and had no memories of the challenges of the past...I'd just be one big kid...PERMANENTLY (!)

To people who get jaded with the world, cheapest freeest most effective therapy I suggest: Go hang out with a little kid for a day!

In any case it occurred to me if I ever have kids one thing I'm gonna make sure they grow up with is self-confidence and self-belief...I've noticed how fuelled purely by that, even the average person can go really really far! And true self confidence is very self-protective...I see so many people with so much potential yet they lack self esteem, confidence and self-belief...so they just sort of linger like stagnant water and don't achieve all that they are capable of...I just hope that one day they realise that they're capable of manifesting what they want out of life...but it all starts within!