I can see your insides.

I showed my mate some cool thermographic pictures I got taken the other day sharing thinking "hey check out this cool technology" and he surprised me by saying "wow they're pretty personal and erotic they're even more personal then if you sent me naked pictures of yourself!" And this guy is a major porn-o-holic!

Bizarre...meanwhile I just see beautiful rainbow colours and am wondering how this may be related technology to that used in Kirlian cameras to take pictures of auras?

Anyway it puzzles me how most people my age guys or gals seem so sex obsessed and mating directed...it's kinda boring and gets old after an umpteenth conversation on the topic...my old soul mate reckons the dissonance with me is a soul age thing and that the majority of the world are younger souls so hung up on satisfying their most primal needs immediately... Maybe that's why I always found the majority of the world have not a whole lot too interesting to say...and I'm really quite contented preferring my own company hermiting in nature nine out of ten times. Most people think that is extremely boring, but it works for me ^^!

Another thing I noticed is I have eyes but what I see seems to be so different to what other people see. I can see someone but I don't really "look"...I can't actually quite remember if I met a whole lot of people before and have trouble recognizing people I know if they didn't actually indicate that they know me first if I've only met them once or twice. I think it's cos I don't really look but also...I just see straight THROUGH them. Hence what I actually "see" is their insides, not their outsides. Hence don't even bother asking me did you see that person...unless they had on some seriously interesting costume like an elephant trunk, green face paint, spock ears and a feather boa purple tail. Cos really exteriors aren't of much consequence...I'm already scoping and digging around your insides!

I felt I had this done to me by two other people this year who also share this "ability". I realised it felt invasive and I didn't like it but I can't help myself. That's just the way I am and have always been....It's actually super handy having an in-built "crap detector" so you can fast forward past all the facades people put on 90% of the time. Anyway, just one of those *fascinating* random thoughts I get and felt like blogging at 5am in the morning(!) I realise I have been neglectful of my blog recently so hopefully this *fascinating* post makes up for it somewhat...sorry HO, I know it's my duty to keep you somewhat entertained, so the munchkins don't get you, lol!

p.s One weird thing I noticed is I can't often recall what people look like but I always remember voices...and have like some kind of permanent voice archive stored in my memory bank...

Maiestate

Hmmm 4am awake, so, not great...but at least I sort of slept for 4 hours which is the best I've managed since Friday!!! (My good friends dutifully inform me that I look like total crap LOL- at least I take comfort in them knowing that I'm really not exaggerating how horribly shitty I feel physically!) Oh well...maybe it's just that case of "it can only get worse before it gets better" or "the most rewarding things in life are the ones we have to struggle hardest to attain".

In any case, MAI-E-STA-TE...what does it mean?

A Latin word, it means majesty, nobility...I liked this word as soon as I first put my eyes to it which was when I was about 14 or 15...because to me it immediately struck me as the closest word to "integrity" without being a derivative.

In any case I realise Integrity is the one thing I seem to be searching for a lot these days...in the majority of society, it is highly, highly lacking. As an old soul I've always had a fairly liberal live and let live type attitude, but one area where I find myself intolerant is when people act dishonorably -by all standard perception- and I am aware that someone will get hurt out of this...it offends my sense of justice and also activates my sense of compassion for the victim...many times I am aware of this potentiality before it eventuates so that is when I am more compelled to proactively offer my 2c...

But at the end of the day,young souls are in this world for a good time- heck- for the most part they are not even aware of any wrongdoing, so how can you hold wrongdoing against people who completely lack the same level of Awareness- that would be like resenting a baby for being selfish!

Eh it can be trying, being an old soul living in a young soul world. In any case I realise a lot of my "unique" experience of life is due to being a Life Path Number 11- one of the Master numbers - our experience of the world seems to be half in the physical plane and half in the spiritual plane-hence why we often need grounding, and also why I am incredibly idealistic! LOL...along with 22, 33...we are pretty rare- I think I've only met 4 others in my life and I think its full effect only really kicks in with a bit of maturity...

okay I might try to "sleep" again :p