Silly Zhen!

Feeling quite a bit more sane after boiling up some of the nice putrid brown stuff :)

I also ventured to jam a few needles in...

Hopefully that means normal ;) levels of sanity will return in full force and my jingling nerves will stabilize...

EVERYTHING scares me lately!!! Random lost tourist invades my personal bubble to ask a question stands a bit too close and I'm almost jumping out of my skin...

I've been such a bundle of nerves, even though my logical brain knows I'm being completely irrational :p

In any case when that peaceful calm washed over me as I sipped that brown goo and liked it...and even more so after the needles went in...I was thinking gosh I am an idiot...what's the point of all that knowledge I study so hard for if I can't even rescue myself in a more timely fashion in times of irrational crises...why do I only act when I have a snowball! I guess it is just that bit harder when you don't have that objectivity which comes with detachment. In the same way I can see why it's probably not such a great idea to treat family and friends either...

In any case...next time I need to be better prepared for eclipses LOL...there is that joke that I start to turn into a werewolf whenever there is a full moon...maybe with eclipses I become a timid little mouse that scuttles to the nearest available dark corner...and no amount of "pull yourself together you little chicken shit" is going to change a thing!

In any case, considering how much my constitution can't afford to lose blood I'm actually really glad to be a rare AB blood type...being the universal recipient with not many people actually able to benefit from my donated blood anyway...it means I don't feel so guilty that I can't!