Walking the Wire: The Delicate Art of...Balance!

It struck me possibly around 330am in the morning that these studies are of such an unyielding gruelling nature that I'm constantly operating at such a high level of intensity that besides the fact I literally don't know how to chill out anymore, that I'm always teetering precariously over those flames that lie below....a little to one side and suddenly before I know it I've toppled over and am bathing in flames....Burnt out!!!

Luckily though, with a bit of carefulness, reincarnation is an option and like those blinking multi-life characters in computer games I get to reappear back on the screen just to jump back on that wire...to do it all over again! :p

Bless this dear blog...how could I endure this odyssey without it? I look very much forward to the day I can be blog free...cos it'll mean my life is no longer stressy and there is actual leeway for *fun factor* in my real life!

It's 1:23am and...

I'm BORED OUT OF MY BRAIN! (this very rarely happens). I'm waiting for my hair to dry.

Had a great yoga session tonight (first I've managed in 3 weeks but apart from that...blergh....the daily grind is just getting too mundane....cramming, cramming, cramming. I think it only struck me how sucky my current routine existence is after I managed to see REAL LIVE friends(by accident) and realised it is actually fun having these :p...and when a friend pointed out that basically our existence revolves around 1)study and 2)making sure we don't fail. That reductionist view of our lives has festered into discontent...and if I wasn't so overcommitted time wise I would be so tempted to just select some random date in some random drop down menu and just take some random trip...somewhere. I think I can be a bit of a demanding excitement junkie when my life is not packed to the rafters...Need so much mental stimulation...

I also found out that this year's breaks are my last "holiday" periods before I enter the working world, which for our field means no real holidays again...hmmm, so tempted to actually take a proper trip....hmmm maybe I'm just feeling envy that the folks are in the other hemisphere, with my sister just returned and my other sister due to go in October. That just leaves me the sole non-jetsetter in our family :( oh well at least there are less than 12 hours before I get to see my mate D from Japan and we're going to stuff our faces over yum cha...so that will be at least some "event" in my mundane existence...

Guilty Pleasures...

1. Sleeping IN. Lying in Bed....(when I should be in class :-o! )
2. Eating whatever I want...that means Chocolate! (for now)
3. (Day) Dreaming so that things end up burning and stops get missed...oops
4. Precious time frivolously spent on the internet when I should & could be studying.
5. Playing music at full blast with little concern as to whether my neighbours actually appreciate the sound or not.
6. The little leap of joy I feel inside when my ball manages to hit the cage car driving around collecting all the balls at the driving range :o)

What are yours?

Geez, even Online shopping is exhausting! :p

Who would have thought?? Maybe I just HATE shopping...period.

Oh well, easy solution: Just get filthy rich!!! ;)

At that point, "Shopping" ceases to exist...and it's "Welcome to the land of Purchasing whenever whatever wherever on a whim!"

Shan, that alliteration was for you :)

Empathic Energy Transfers

It seems this week a lot of people around me had some big issues to deal with...employment problems, family problems, health problems...so I ended up "listening" quite a bit this week! So maybe in combination: that time of the month, being drained by excessive needling and all that listening...sheesh! I was very very exhausted by afternoon!

So I didn't feel so crash hot, I had a huge "deficiency" headache my eyes were as sore as sandpaper and I had absolutely no energy left to cook...spent 3 hours lying on the couch before I could peel myself off to go out...I ended up bugging my one friend that lives nearby for dinner.

After I had some fuel in me I felt a whole lot better and he decided to accompany me grocery shopping (Friday night LOL no better night to do groceries if you want to avoid long queues and crowds!)

Before too long he was totally drooping and barely had enough energy to push the trolley let alone accompany me through every aisle. The guy was totally fatigued. Not only that he said his eyes were so sore and he had a headache...as soon as he mentioned this...I immediately knew what had happened...he had taken on my ailments while I had steadily gained some "bounce" back! And he complained it NEVER EVER HAPPENS except with me! And it was then that we had a revelation...an Empathic Energy Transfer!

And the beauty of it is that this friend has Asperger's. Which means that he has difficulty relating to others and understanding things like feelings and emotions...so it was kinda "cool"that he got like that cos we realised he must have a connection with me and so is actually able to Experience Empathy! Lol poor guy, he actually ended up having to catch a bus home...just up the street, he was that energy sapped...meanwhile I had obviously stolen some of his energy and managed to lug a huge amount of groceries home with some energy to spare!!!